The mere phrase. It doesn’t get it. You can’t DARE humbleness. To be humble, it must not be dared.
A swift kick in the patootie.
My big mouth.
I come to you today with a heavy heart and a big mouth forcibly closed.
I have worked so hard to improve my every aspect of life. I have so far to go.
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
I found myself, yet again, with my foot in my mouth. I ask God daily to always come into my heart and work on what HE deems appropriate, that he convicts me of not just what is right but what is wrong. And boy does he. Although it is painful, I will never regret or stop asking for him to do so.
I had a moment of weakness yesterday. I was upset at how a situation occurred. Instead of going to God about it, I went to a friend. In doing so, I broke the trustworthiness I so yearn for.
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
This is not where my lesson was learned. It gets worse.
We live in a world obsessed with technology. So there I sit, thinking I was so sly, texting this friend. I set my phone down and carry on with my life. An hour or so later, I pick my phone up only to realize I sent the message intended for a friend, to the person I was frustrated at. I was heartbroken. I was instantly remorseful. Would I have ever been if she didn’t receive the message on accident? Probably not. I began to fall over my words, almost attempting to cover up or excuse what I had said. I put my phone down and asked God for forgiveness and to continue his ever so big job of working on me. I picked my phone up and apologized for my poor behavior. The person never responded. I can do nothing more.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I come to you today, practicing humblesness. I do not wish to challenge God. I do not wish to upset God. I only ask that God remain in me, as he has promised, and that he guide me and improve me in all of the ways I fall short.
Philippians 2:5-8 New International Version (NIV)
5 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
7 rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!